the unknown

Let me see. I want to see it. Wait, I can’t see. Just wait, you’ll see. I can’t wait to see. Have you seen it? Oh my gosh, you have to see it.

It’s enticing and intoxicating, chasing it down – whatever it is.

A year ago, I took the plunge into the Midwest life. It was frightening and exciting at the same time. I felt sure of nothing tangible. I could say this experience was a once in a lifetime leap, but the truth is, it’s pretty indicative of a life in Christ. Expected even.

Jesus is constantly calling me out of familiarity. My dwelling place – living in the unknown with the one who knows me.

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:18

Choosing Christ means choosing a life of mystery. It’s not a phase or season of stepping out of the boat, it’s every day, every breath. Professing my love for a God who is unseen to my eyes, but felt profoundly in my heart; distant, yet closer than I’ll ever know; and all around me, while living within me. It’s too much to comprehend, yet completely worth fixating on.

How do we fix our eyes on what is unseen? 

We walk by faith and not by sight. And faith is led with love.

My intellect cannot rationalize how my heart leaps forward into the unknown. Willingly, yet foolishly in the eyes of the world. It’s challenging and tempting at times, to settle for something a little less unpredictable or refining. Over and over again, I grow in awareness of the frailty of my trust, how easy it is for me to fear or doubt because I long to know what it is and when it’s coming… you know, the next big thing.

And then, he intervenes. He overcomes. He rescues. He fights. He romances. He wins.

I’ll never understand it. I feel it though. The power of a love that is greater than me.

In my twenty seven years on this earth, I’ve learned this more than anything. A heart in love with Jesus is blind, yet sees clearly; wild, yet rests peacefully; and free, finding joy in obedience, while constantly living in the unknown. It’s beyond my comprehension and out of my control, but it’s the only life worth living.

I will lift my eyes to things unseen
To the promise in Your victory
And I will build my life on the mystery
Of where You call me, and I will go
Into the unknown

– Mosaic MSC, Unknown

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